It's that time of year again. January. The start of a new year. The beginning. A time for changes and possibly maybe even some resolutions.This year I haven't made myself a list or contemplated five hundred things I want to work on I've only decided to try. Try to be healthy, try to serve more, try to find joy in the small things, try to say 'no' more to things outside my family, try to read my scriptures better, etc. Trying is all we can really ask of ourselves.
Two years ago my New Year's resolution was to find balance. One of the many things I was trying to balance was my relationship with the scale. Was it my friend or foe? Well it all depended on what it said. If it was a number that I was looking for then I felt awesome, energetic, happy - it was my friend. If it read even 1 pound more than I wanted I was grumpy, mad, depressed - it was my foe. I was in a place where I was so concerned with my weight and what the scale said that I let it run my life and often times ruin it by letting it affect my entire attitude. It got so bad that my husband decided one day to take it away. He hid it. For real. And for a long time. I didn't know what to do with myself. How could I go without ever knowing what I weighed? I literally thought the world might end or that I'd all of a sudden put on 50 lbs. But you know what? It was so liberating and exactly what I needed!
Here are some important things I learned from my 'break-up' with the scale:
1. My self worth is not determined by a number.
No matter what the number on the scale said who I am as a person does not change. I'm still a loving mother, a caring wife, a compassionate friend, a concerned daughter, an active church goer, an avid volunteer, etc. I'm me and who I am does not change just because the number on the scale read 5 pounds more or less than what I had hoped for.
2. I should try to be healthy - just because.
Being healthy is a lifestyle. Living is not an all or nothing game. I learned I should be trying to eat healthy for my body and insides not just to try and see a certain number appear on the scale. I should eat healthy most of the time, exercise when possible, and enjoy treats and going out to eat in moderation. I said enjoy - not dread because the scale might go up a pound or two for a couple of days.
3. I did not need a scale to know my weight.
I learned that I knew already for myself around what my weight was without needing a scale to tell me. I knew if I'd been eating junk that my pants were feeling tighter and I was a little more uncomfortable in my skin. I knew if I was eating good and exercising that my weight was probably just where I wanted it to be.
Where am I now? I'm back on the healthy train. The scale and I are back in a relationship - only this time a healthy one! I don't weigh myself everyday - why? There's really no need. Right now I'm in the process of losing 15 of baby weight so I check my weight once a week to mark my progress. Once I'm to where I'd like to be it will go down to once a month - just to keep me in check.
Is the scale a bad thing? No way! It is an effective tool to use when losing weight. It is a gentle reminder of where you are when you are trying to maintain your weight. Just don't let it get out of control. If it does and the relationship with it is going south - take a break. It will be good for you :)